I'm at this weird point in life.

I can make choices that won't have lasting consequences.

Yet at the same time, I am making some of the most important decisions that will very much affect my future.

I am young enough to skip town when annoyed with the pressures of people trying to conform me.

But old enough to be tied down by commitments and responsibilities.

I can blame my urges to live off of goldfish crackers on the carefree spirit of adolescence, 

However, those spirits must be muted in the maturity of this thing I hate to call "adulthood."

I can give my heart to those whom I know will simply break it.

Whilst still looking for the one that will guard it for eternity.

**No, Matt won't break my heart. And No, I'm not still looking.

I'm just saying.

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I've been schizophrenic with my feelings lately.

One second I'm twitter-patted.

The next, I'm annoyed.

I'm happy.

Then I'm sad.

It makes sense,

then it's a mess.

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It's very paradoxical, this life.

But I count my blessings.

And when it comes down to it, the Lord gives me exactly what I ask for.

Sometimes I just find myself asking for the wrong things.

So I really can't complain.

For those of you who follow my scripture blog I'm sorry for neglecting it this weekend.

There was just so much to do.

I am dying for summertime.

 And now, As I confine myself to my room for the rest of the evening
with too much to do,

I bid thee adieu.