That's how tired I am.

I work 7-4 every day. meaning I have to get up at 6. And this entire week I don't get to take my lunch break, because I had to take some time off last Friday to go buy my new car* so that I would be able to get to work on Monday, and we have to make up work we miss. So that's 9 hours a day for me. Then I come home and workout, eat dinner with my family, and wait patiently for Matthew to get back from his brother's house in Sandy. Typically, he gets back around 9:30 or 10:00, which sucks for me because I have to get up at 6:00, remember? But it's not like I can just NOT see the boyfriend. I have to. So I've been getting approximately 5 hours of sleep each day. (totally worth it, I might add.)

Today after I finished my work out, I was doing a bit of stretches and guess what happened? I fell asleep mid-stretch. You know the one where you spread your legs as wide as you can and put your forehead to the floor? fell asleep with my forehead on the floor. 

So even though I haven't been getting any sleep lately, I am ever so grateful that I can literally fall asleep anytime, anywhere. And right now, I finally have time for a 2 hour nap before the boyfriend will be back. Lucky me, huh!? 

I have to admit...I'm loving it all.**

Don't you just love summertime? Even though I haven't had a sno-cone yet, the boyfriend and I have been on zillions of dates lately, and i have a feeling it will start getting warmer soon. I can tell, because people keep telling me I'm tan! How does that happen?! woot!

Tell me, how are each of your summers going?

Also, why haven't any of you called me to hang out yet?!

Do iiittttt.

:]

NOTES:

*the transmission on Bernard died...I cried. at work. while on the phone with a client. cause that's when I got the text from my mom. Bernard will never be forgotten.This also means that I have to make car payments now. Because, technically, Bernard belonged to my mama. New car belongs to me. In full. And I now have to pay. in full. boo. New Car is a Black, 2008 VW Jetta. She's super cute. And despite my mourning for Bernard, I love her.

**Except work..my job isn't my favorite. but I'm lucky enough that I will be able to make enough for that new car, an apartment for next year, and my fall semester of schooling at BYU. I am a child of God. It's utterly obvious.

p.s. Glee!! YES!! Seriously. so happy about Rach and Finn. 

how does everyone feel about Mercedes and Sam?....hmm...

Question.

Who thinks the world is going to end today?

:]

Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday.

Because this has been the longest week of the century.

Sunday.

like my post title? I'm getting really creative up in hurrrrr....

anyway..

Ever since I've been home, I've been really happy. Not that everything has been perfect, but I've just been happy. It made me realize that I was pretty much a professional sulker down at SUU. 

No really-- I could bottle up tears and sell them on Ebay.

I will admit, most of those tears were the result of vicariously living through characters in sappy romance movies, but intertwined, not too few and far between, were many of my own.

The world loves to make you feel like you're nothing.

The world loves to tell you that you can't do it; that you're not good enough.

Well guess what?

I don't like that world.

I'm revolting, bayonet in hand, 

Because there is a world, which oftentimes seems to be hidden, that accepts all forms of imperfection.

And that world starts with you.

It's Friday the 13th.

Since I am all-wise-and-knowing {end sarcasm} I am going to give you some advice.

13 THINGS NOT TO DO:

1: Overlook the words "DO NOT MICROWAVE: contains raw poultry" on your cordon bleu. Unless you happen to have frozen corn dogs on back up. Those CAN be microwaved.

2: Watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part One right before you go to bed; hence why I was skyping the boyfriend out of fear at 2:30 in the morning.

3: procrastinate school advising. Turns out that a lot of popular classes get taken early. Go figure.

4: Play twirl-a-whirl (a game where you just spin as fast as you can and try not to run into anything) in your boyfriends living room. Especially if there is a banister nearby. Result = head-to-banister in unfavorable fashion.

5: Accidentally send a text to your ex-boyfriend. One meant for your best friend saying, "I miss you and I'm grateful for you in my life." uhwellthatwasdumb. Luckily, he's on a mission and didn't receive that text. Yours may not be.

6: Fall asleep whilst skyping your boyfriend in the middle of the night with your computer too close. You may roll over onto it and somehow turn it off, resulting in an offended boyfriend. "babe, i promise you weren't snoring..."

7: Fall asleep with a Twix candy bar in your hand. This just means your obese; there's no way around that.

8: Use your scriptures as a pillow. They aren't comfortable. They make your face sweaty. And you get colorful markings on your nose, and they leave scar-like indents on your face; neither of which will come off in time for work. Classy, Kay. I know.

9: Tell everyone you hate your job before you find out that you get a $10.00 gift card every week, just for doing your job. People will think you hate freebies, and you'll never be given anything again. (results not proven.)

10: Go onto Urban Outfitters' website when you are broke. You will fall in love with everything you see and you will obsess over it, even when it was over 13 hours ago. Hmmmph.

11: Buy $300 Spanish books that your professor says will be discontinued the next year. The bookstore will not buy them back from you, and you will lose a lot of money.

12: Sneeze with your eyes open. Yur eyeballz will fall owt. That is...le bad. chirp chirp.

13: Go to bed without going potty. You can't sleep, and you become too lazy to get up and go midway through the night. So you lay in bed and cringe, hoping it will pass. It doesn't. And your bladder explodes. Kaboom. Gross. That. or you pee your pants. Or you just eventually get up and go and cry because you've wasted so much time being lazy when you could have been sleeping. 

There ya go. You're welcome.

Love, Kay.

chubbzz.

Have any of you ever watched The Biggest Loser? 

Ironically, I came downstairs to do a Jillian Michaels workour video, and my mom was watching it.

It's slightly inspirational. 

And with the boyfriend going to intense workouts that make him want to throw up lately, 

I want to get in better shape too!

Plus, my family is going to Bear Lake this summer.

for an entire week.

Some things about me just need to go. :)

I don't get to see the boyfriend as much as I'd like lately.

but he does make sure that I get to see him at least once a day.

Being grown ups sure has been different for us.

But it's worth it.

Because we can afford to go to Disneyland!

eventually.

so I am one happy camper.

oh! Camping sounds fun!

any takers?

Hi, my name's Kalynn and I'm with Myler Disability Law Firm.

Today I started my first day of work at my new job.

Allow me to tell you a little about it.

Myler Disability is a law firm that helps people who become injured, or who have a disease, and therefore unable to work, obtain their Social Security money early.

My part of the job is to answer phone calls of potential clients, or if they have left a message on our website, then I contact them and I go through the application process with them.

Can I tell you that, especially on the first day, it's really scary to know that someone may or may not get that money because of me?

Simply because that application is the first step in a multiple-year long process, and if I record something wrong...it's all my fault. 

So after only a day of training and paperwork, i was ridiculously nervous for my first phone call.

But guess what?

It wasn't even that bad.

I probably took longer than it would normally take, but it was my first day.

And I don't think I made any mistakes...

But it's fun, and I'm learning sooo much about about law.

who knew, right?

The story of two best friends.

Our relationship began on October 22nd, 1991. From prior to day one, she knew I was as stubborn as heck when I waited until the last second to flip over to the right side so that my delivery would be safe. But my stubborn-ness didn't stop her from loving me 100 percent. And her hair didn't stop me from loving her either. (haha! just kidding, mama! Love you!! AND your hair!!)

As I got older, our friendship grew. I was never unsure of my mom's love and support for me. She came to every single one of my dance performances, no matter where or what it was. She even bought expensive tickets to see me perform at the Vegas bowl and at the Stadium of Fire; not to mention the traveling. She was always there for me. She gave me endless opportunities to try everything I wanted to try, and she always encouraged me to try more.

Look how pretty she looks in this picture! I've always thought my mom was beautiful, inside and out. I always took great pride when people, oh, so many people, I might add, would tell me that I looked just like my mom. Although, in this picture you may think I came from some Chinese lady, it is not the case. The older I get, the more I look like my mama. How lucky am i?

 

 Being away from my mom made me realize how much I actually needed her. Not that I haven't always known I needed her, I just never knew it was so much! I don't know how many times I would call her on the phone crying about money problem or roommate problems. If there's one thing I learned from moving down to Cedar City, it's that my mom really is my best friend. I would come home on weekends, and all I would want to do was play games with her and my dad. I'm so glad that I don't have to live far away from her anymore.

Mom, I love you so much more than I will ever be able to say. 

Thank you so much for all that you have done and continue to do for me.

I'm so excited to be back for the summer.

I am so glad that I'll be working in American Fork while I'm going to school at BYU so that I have a good excuse to stop by every day.

I'm really looking forward to our scrapbooking Saturdays, and to Sunday dinners.

Happy Mother's Day, Mom!

You're the best and I love you to death!

p.s. Happy Mother's Day to my 3 lovely sisters Melissa, Julie, and Katie, who are all beautifully wonderful mothers, and I am so glad that I have all of you as examples to learn from for when I become a mom!

This is getting out of control.

I want to go to Disneyland. I HAVE to go. 

I'm going to have to be patient though. I have to save my money for tuition, 

and then I WILL go to Disneyland.

and I'm making the boyfriend come with me. 

It probably won't be at least until the end of July, or even early August.

And I'll probably have to do the whole,

drive-up-Friday, Disneyland-on-Saturday, Drive-home-Sunday deal,

but I don't even care.

I have to go to that magical little land.

I have to ride the teacups.

and go on space mountain.

and Soarin' Over California

and Tower of Terror.

And Indiana Jones.

and the lame-but ever so fun, Star Wars ride.

And Splash Mountain.

And watch the parade!

and see the fireworks!

And hopefully see a prince or two!

{Not THAT important, since I'll be bringing mine with me. :) }

I wonder if they've got Rapunzel there yet...

Who knows!

But. It's all I can think about.

disneyland. disneyland. disneyland.

If anyone knows of way to get discounts on tickets, that'd be fabulous.

Finally.

I got a job.

Welcome to your new old life.

I am finally home for the summer!!

It's truly fantastic.

It's wonderful knowing that never again will I have to return to crazy old Cedar City for my education.

See, I wasn't liking SUU, so the options were...

-attend UVU, USU, BYU, or THE U.

-run away and get an education in Spain

-OR. stay at SUU...

Don't get me wrong, SUU itself wasn't really the problem. But I'm bad at Cedar and I'm bad at roommates and I'm bad at not having money. But I kept talking to myself and my parents about these problems. I felt like I should leave Cedar, but I was so confused. Why did God feel that it was so necessary for me to go to SUU if I was only going to stay there for a year? But my college ward's bishop's words kept coming back into my mind, which were simply to "keep praying." I did so, and soon after, I opened up to: 

D&C 30: 1-4.

I was amazing how every word was for me. I have such a testimony of the scriptures answering our prayers. And although I had always wanted to go to BYU, and I was still a little upset the first time about not being able to go there, I am so glad that I am finally receiving the opportunity. I'll be where God wants me to be.

You all knew my plans, but this is how they came to be. And I am so excited about them. I am going to live with my very most best girl {emphasis on the "girl" so Matthew doesn't pee his pants.}  friend in the entire world, Miss Brielle Porter. We go way back, and we've ne'er had a quarrel. It's cause we're both honest and open. More Girls really need to learn those skills.

Anyway, so here's to being home, summertime, finding a job, having money, getting tan, watching Matthew play baseball in his hot baseball pants, and spending a lot of time with old friends and family.

I hope you are all enjoying yourselves as well.

 Love, Kalynn Eve.

highs and lows.

I just may have to watch this soon.

high point of my day: finished my last final, and being officially done with school at SUU, and being able to leave in a couple of hours.

Low point of my day: Brushing my teeth and then proceeding to drink Diet Coke.

{because, really, who can stay up till 4:00 in the morning and then take a Math final at 8:00 without some caffeine in them? No one.}

Take a look at yourself.

I find that a majority of the time, I allow myself to be disappointed in people;

getting frustrated that they fell below some unbinding expectation I subconsciously placed upon them.

But who am I to bind expectations to anyone but myself?

I can't change a person.

I can only change me.

And now that I've realized that, I find that I am able to be proud of those around me;

recognizing their successes instead of their shortcomings. (or at least trying harder to.)

The world really is a wonderful place, my friends.

p.s. Two finals down, two to go. :) This week hasn't turned out to be that bad at all! I love finals week! It means summer is SO FRRRREAKKING CLOSE!!
Seriously, I am so happy!
Except that everyone around me is ornery.. but I'm not judging..

Even though.

Even though it's currently 5:48 and I am still in American Fork,

and even though I have a final at 11:00 in Cedar City,

and even though I never made time all weekend to study,

and even though I'm pretty sure it will be my hardest one,

I don't really mind. 

Cause I got to see my beautiful, new baby nephew get blessed,

and I got to see all my family together, which hasn't happened in a while.