I don't know why I always feel compelled to make faces like that. I also don't know why I always feel more compelled to start goals at the beginning of the year, as opposed to the second I realize I need to change something in my life. I mean, in reality, change is impartial to time. Life couldn't really care less if it's January 1st or July 17th. I was lucky to ring in the New Year with some of my closest friends. The kind of people who just inspire you to be better every second you're with them. I've compiled a list of 2015 "To Do's". They are actually more so, "To Become's". I figure resolutions are worthless if they aren't progressing me into becoming a better person. So that's what I'm resoluting (?) to do.

I want to become someone who speaks only kind words.

I want to become someone who is inspired (and inspires others) through film.

I want to become someone who harbors purely positive thoughts.

I want to become someone who flosses every single day. (haha..for real).

I want to become someone who eliminates negative self talk.

I want to become someone who is healthy. 

I want to become someone who develops an even greater love and understanding of the sacred temple ordinances.

I want to become someone who serves others more often. 

I want to become someone who will one day be a worthy wife and mother to choice children of Heavenly Father.

I want to become more like my Savior.

Tuesday-isms.

^Today I received back a package that I mailed to a client last week. I had put my own address in both the sender and recipient spots, in case you were wondering where my mind is at lately. 

^About two years ago I got eyelash extensions for the first time, and apparently took them out the wrong way, because I've pretty much had bald eyeballs ever since. Today, however, I noticed that my eyelashes are getting full again! It's a pretty big deal.

^On Sunday, I went to my sweet friends Ashley and Justin's house for dinner/games. Oh, and Ashley also gave me a trim and put lots of blonde in my hair. (say whaaaaa?!....) I thought that would help summer come quicker, but then it snowed this morning, so...

^A clean room always makes me feel better. I don't know why I have such a hard time putting my clothes on hangers. 

^Today I met someone so genuinely kind, that it made me take a step back and want to be better. Don't you love it when people can have such a huge impact on you within 2 minutes?

Happy little life.

    

There is a lot going on in my little life right now. There are a lot of possible direction changes that I am not completely sure I have any control over. Usually this lack of control causes me to be a little anxious, however I have tried to remain pretty cool and content through it all. There are times that my mind goes to a weird place when I get too worried about decisions I might have to make, but in the deepest part of me there is a confidence calming me and letting me know it will all be okay. I just know something great is in store for me at this fork in the road, and I am just drinking in all of the opportunity. I know still that I have amazing people in my life that will not let me down. There are people like all of you that are always smiling at me! (Thank you!!) Not everything going on is worth smiling about, but we smile because we can! I feel so inspired by it. I'm constantly laughing, and I just can't stop. And more importantly, I feel that for the first time in a long time, I know I have my own back. I am more determined than ever to make it. And for all of this, I am immensely grateful.

Maybe deep down my anxiety is frantically flirting will all my worry, but I wouldn't know, because up here I cannot get my head out of the happy clouds or wipe the smile off my face.

Yesterday I saw a sunflower sticking up out of the snow. Doesn't that itself just make you so happy?

chaos.

so I guess that means I can expect a great change coming up.