1: I miss my dear friend Abigail. 

2: I'm learning to play guitar.

3: I miss Matthew more than words can describe.

4: I am weak, but learning to get stronger.

5: I am moving to Logan in a week from tomorrow.

All of which are because God has a plan for me, and he wants me to learn and grow, and he knows that I can't do that without getting out of my comfort zone. It's crazy how quickly an invite from a sister, that would never beforehand even be considered an option, can turn into the most needed, sought after adventure that the entire Earth pushes you toward. 

Obstacles are demolished, dislikes and fears are overcome. And it feels so good to finally be on the right path.

p.s. I'm sorry I've become so bad at blogging. I promise to keep you in the loop once I make my move. 

More to come. 

On happiness.

Today I was reading some old comments that some of you lovely people have left for me on my blog posts in the past. 

About a year ago, someone said, "You have a great life, by CHOICE, and I admire that." 

I've thought about that comment often since then, and 

I really felt proud that someone could say that about me.

Lately, however, I wouldn't say that that is the case. Ever since Matthew left, 

I've been a huge downer, pretty selfish, and also pretty lazy. 

But I am grateful that at any point in time, we have the opportunity to change, and that is my vow for today and every day from now on.

I'm determined to make my world beautiful in every way that I can, take pleasure in the little things, learn from the big, be a better person, and grow in every way possible. 

That might require some changes that are out of my comfort zone, but I'm willing to do whatever it takes.

And if you need it, I challenge you to do the same. 

10 days later

We first heard from Matthew on Tuesday via e-mail, but on Wednesday I finally got my own personal letter that was just to me. Matthew asked, "What do you do with all the time that you used to spend with me? From the looks of it, it seems like you spend it writing me!" haha. While I have written a decent amount of letters in the past week and a half, I am also enrolled in summer semester. I can't tell you how much I love being in school now that Matthew is gone. My two classes on campus don't actually start until June 26th, but I have two online classes that I've already started working on and they have truly helped keep me sane. I love having something productive to do; something that is getting me somewhere. I've always appreciated school for that reason. 

Without my classes to keep me busy and my late-night drives with mom, these past 10 days would have gone by even slower than they already have. If I dare say that that is possible. 

How do you guys feel about school? Love it? Hate it? Boring? Do you even go to school? What's better: being a full-time student or full-time employee? Who else, like me, is both?