I'm 100% a sunshine kind of girl, but these last couple of days have been perfectly rainy. 
I just love what rain does to the colors of the world.

You wanna know what crazy thing I did last week? I quit my day-job. (Insert hands-to-cheeks-with-mouth-open-wide/the classic face of Kevin from Home Alone here.) Really, this is crazy!! If you know me at all, you know I've relied on a full time job for the past 5 years. And there's a lot that goes into the reasons why, but I'm taking it as a major opportunity. Over the past couple of years, I've been dabbling with videography, and I've just loved it. Ever since I shot my first wedding, I've had a small-but-steady flow of jobs come from it, but I've always, always wanted to do more with it. I always held a full time job and never really had the time/energy to put more into it, though, and lately that's been getting to me. Even while I was doing work that related, it wasn't the same as being able to take on projects that are my own. 

I thought leaving my last job would bring a lot of fear and anxiety, but you know what I've been thinking since I made this move? 
Why didn't I do this years ago??!

And I'll tell you why. I've never really been one to care what others think of me, but I never really thought much about what I thought of myself either. Does that make sense? It's what I titled this post. Self-image. You know, that internalized war you fight with yourself on a daily basis. The war of which the outcome determines how you act, how you treat others, and how you treat yourself. Isn't is ironic that the casualty is also the assailant? Yet we make the conscious effort to lose more often than we allow ourselves to win! I'm guilty of this. We all are. 

One thing I LOVE about the gospel is that we're constantly taught how we're perfectly imperfect. And one day I will truly come to realize the validity of that statement. And you should too.

You're beautiful if you let yourself be beautiful.
You're kind if you let yourself be kind.
You're creative if you let yourself be creative.
You're a great videographer if you let yourself be a great videographer.

You with me? Amiright??

Thursday, Third Day.

"Monday, one day,
Tuesday, two day,
Wednesday, what day?
Thursday, THIRD DAY!"
--Joey Tribbiani

In other words, I watch too much Friends. But then again, is there such thing as "too much" Friends? 

We're not gonna answer that...

Man, life's been crazy the last little bit. I feel like most of it is too personal to put on the ol' blog, but, in short, my dad has cancer. What started out as Melanoma skin cancer, has turned into a few tumors on one of his lungs, brain, and a few other places as well. 

This morning I escaped to the mountains to do some thinking about where my life is going, decisions I've made recently, and decisions I still need to make. 
Being in the mountains is always where I find peace.

Oh, how I wish I could carry the burdens of those who suffer. But I can't, and I'm so incredible sorry about that. 
Trust in the Savior. He's the only person who can. There really is no other way to get through this life.

10 things I learned from babysitting

1: If you toot three times, you have to go potty. 

2: Flashing lights means you're in outer space, and the dark side could attack at any second.

3: Mac and cheese is its own food group, and is better than any other food. Especially if from Golden Corral.

4: Car rides longer than 10 minutes are just unacceptable.

5: Car seats can double as jet pack. Or spaceship. Or train. Or airplane. Or any other mode of transportation. 

6: "Lasterday" is a word used that can be used to mean any day that isn't today.

7: The word underwear is funny to everyone and should be screamed during public outings. If no one laughs, you must scream it again. This may be substituted with the words booger or poop as well.

8: You may have rooms full of toys, but all you need to be entertained is a cup and a spoon.

9: Babies feel cuddliest in the morning. 

10: Children, even in their naivety, are wise beyond their years.

I got to spend the past 5 days babysitting some of my nieces and nephews in St. George! Being an aunt is one of my most cherished relationships. I can't even begin to describe how much these kids mean to me. It was a rainy weekend, and we had so much fun just enjoying each others' company. I can't wait until May when I get to do it all again!