Coldplay

I'll be honest. When Matthew left on his mission, it was harder for me than I like to admit.

( I know. I talk about him toooo much.)

So, when I decided to move to Logan, I believed something magical would happen.

And at first, it actually was kind of magical.

Logan became my very own place where not EVERYTHING reminded me that Matthew was gone.

(I know, that's pretty selfish of me...but it's how I thought.)

Not only that, but living with my big sister, who I look up to enormously, is pretty much the funnest thing I've ever done and the best decision I've ever made.

But then, USU wasn't the answer I thought it was going to be, and my job became less than bearable. 

Now I kind of feel worried that, because of stupid desperation and anxiety, I've landed myself somewhere where I'm maybe not meant to be.

Maybe it's not that...but like...has anyone else been to 4 universities and not been able to mesh with any of them? haha.

Oh, it's pathetic.

Luckily, until I figure out the best thing for me to do, I still have my camera, my family, and especially that brilliant sister of mine I mentioned before for comfort and advice.

And Coldplay. I still have Coldplay.

Tell me. What do you guys do with the lemons life throws at you? How do you make lemonade?

5 not-so-secret secrets.

1: I miss my dear friend Abigail. 

2: I'm learning to play guitar.

3: I miss Matthew more than words can describe.

4: I am weak, but learning to get stronger.

5: I am moving to Logan in a week from tomorrow.

All of which are because God has a plan for me, and he wants me to learn and grow, and he knows that I can't do that without getting out of my comfort zone. It's crazy how quickly an invite from a sister, that would never beforehand even be considered an option, can turn into the most needed, sought after adventure that the entire Earth pushes you toward. 

Obstacles are demolished, dislikes and fears are overcome. And it feels so good to finally be on the right path.

p.s. I'm sorry I've become so bad at blogging. I promise to keep you in the loop once I make my move. 

More to come.